justrun-.

i am sooo tired :( been sleeping late for the past several days. late as in wee hours of the morning.. i repeat, i HATE racing. sigh.

just came home from training (and sort of pigged out.. since i have to wait till 2030h for dinner..sigh). i am so so so so so tired! :( almost died during training.

house is so empty without pam, penny and daddy. resident neighbour penny has gone off to perth..won't get to see her for the next 9mths. not used to the house being so empty.. miss daddy toooo. after sch xctry last week he brought me to shangri-la to buy chocs for the remaining females in the family (mummy, penny, prissy, me). he bought us chocs and a rose each last year too (: ahh. i love my family a lot.. sigh.

mummy brought terry, prissy and i to aunty ban hong's house for the annual cny reunion dinner. fewer people turned up this year.. everyone seems to have disappeared.. to some corner of the earth or other. anyway, got to talk to my cousins! :D we rarely meet so i don't know much about any of them.. talked to michelle! who is a teacher! haha. but she's on one year leave cos she just gave birth. and she tutors my niece and nephew! both of whom stay in her house. niece and nephew as in her sister-in-law's children. they all stay together in their really nice houseeee.

my niece and nephew (renee and ryan) are so sooooooo sooooooooo cute. they are the cutest kids i have ever met in my entire life. like seriously. cos usually when i meet kids they are so spoilt and they misbehave and everything. but renee are ryan are so well-mannered and adorable! they have these hamsters.. which they are always playing with whenever we go over. so cute... heh. i think watching innocent children play and laugh and run around, without a care in the world about life's gazillion problems is such a sweet sight. made me feel a bit happier... hahah renee put one of her hammies in this toy frying pan.. and put the frying pan on this toy stove. lol. and the hamster POOPED IN THE FRYING PAN. hahah. then she put the hammie in the toy microwave oven..and it POOPED IN THE OVEN TOO. hamsters + cute kids = super cute sight.

rahh. why can't everyone just remain like that forever and ever? the world would be a much happier place.

i am stuffed and fat and buffalo-like (according to tommy, i am a buffalo).

but i'm quite relieved i don't feel so depressed today. the past few days were so bad i don't even think i'd be able to put down how horrible i felt in words. i hope the next few days will be better..

oh yes. sianying gave me a sunflower for vday. it is so prettyyy (i love flowers a lot). thanks again sianying! it is sitting on my table staring at me. the petals are wilting though, which makes me a bit sad but it is still a pretty sunflower and i wish it would stop wilting and drying up :(

when it hurts so bad sometimes not having you here
i say,
tonight i've fallen and i can't get up
i need your loving hands to come and pick me up
and every night i miss you, i can just look up
and know the stars are holding you, holding you, holding you tonight.

hope you're happy, wherever you are..

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [19:48]

and took [20080218] strides

it's the passion that drives you